Convicted! Crap.

Our church had its Sunday service at its new location for the first time today, and we did it without our pastor. Pastor David and his wife had a baby yesterday afternoon, and we had a guest speaker this morning. She was an eighteen year old girl from our congregation. That may seem weird, but this young person is amazing. Jackie spoke of her recent mission trip and what she learned and how she was affected. How she was affected. Ha! A good many people were affected by her...me included. I cannot believe that I was brought to tears by her testimony and by how the Holy Spirit was moving through her. It was a wonderful kickoff service for our church's new location.

One of the things about which Jackie spoke was her fear to be herself. The more that I thought about that, the more that it made me think. I do not think that I have ever shared my testimony in its entirety. Usually, I just blow off an opportunity to share my testimony with the excuse of not being able to remember much of my youth due to a head injury -- which is true. However, I have now been compelled to take a deep look at myself, and I have been convicted. I have not been completely honest. The fact is that I CAN remember my life as I got older. I just do not want to. It scares me. It embarrasses me. It makes me feel stupid. I do not want to think about it. Additionally, I suspect that if a lot of people knew who I really am, they would not want anything to do with me anymore.

With that realization in place, Hubby and I had a long discussion last night. For now, I am going to let me fear continue to cripple me. However, I can with confidence say that I now have less fear. It is a step forward.

After church, Richard, Boy, Phil, Connie, and I went to Daddie and Mommie's house for lunch. Their home is like a retreat, set back in the woods with a pond full of fish at the bottom of the hill and a gazebo to enjoy it. Sitting outside on the screened in back deck enjoying a meal and chatting together is so relaxing.

Back at home, we got back to work on the yard. Richard and Boy worked mainly in the back. Connie and I worked mainly on the front. I am excited about our new lilac plants and ivy, which I am hoping to watch climb the bricks. Again, we got a lot accomplished, and, again, there is still much to be done. The main thing that is left is getting plants into the ground before they die. Time works faster than we do, though.

Today I had work done of my spiritual fitness, my mental fitness, and my physical fitness. All in all, it is safe to say that today was a positive and productive day. Tomorrow will be the first day of my RevAbs exercise program. Life is good.