February 6th was our son's third birthday. Yay! Happy birthday, Sweet Boy!
February 6th, G'pa died...yes, on our son's birthday.
February 10th, a friend of ours had surgery. Sometimes stress comes simply from being concerned. (I will not say worrying since we should not worry. Hehe.) She is well, PTL.
February 11th, we were supposed to go to a marriage weekend and have our first "adult" getaway since Boy was born. A crisis caused us to not have child care. Trip cancelled.
February 13th, Hubby fell sick.
Boy got sick.
February 23rd, Hubby had surgery.
Then a different friend got very sick, had a lung collapse, wound up in the hospital on February 25th.
On February 26th, my father fell ill. He almost never even gets a cold.
We were back and forth and back and forth to the hospital, almost an hour away, for the friend who was admitted on Friday. She had surgery on March 2nd.
I cancelled my birthday party on March 5th. We had lunch and went to the hospital that day.
On March 10th, one of our dogs did not seem to be doing well. Hubby took him to the vet on March 11th. X-rays and tests. On March 12th, more tests. Parasite? Cancer? Auto-immune? Tests.
On March 12th, the friend who had surgery for her lung phoned. Back to hospital with a fever of 103. (Foreigner's "Hot-Blooded" came to mind as I typed that.)
Aaah...those are merely the highlights and not even everything that has gone on since last month.
Today I am weary. With all that has been going on, my heart is tired. I feel like I am always trying to be there for others, praying for them, thinking about them, running around, taking care when I can, helping where I can, extending a hand, reaching out....
I tend to be one of those people who tries to see the bright side of things. God has a plan. There is a reason for everything. Sometimes, though, and lately, I simply feel tired. Sometimes I wonder, What is the plan? Sometimes I feel lonely. I am trying so hard to be there for others. Is anyone trying to be there for me?
Then I feel guilty and ponder, Am I selfish to wonder that? (Insert dramatic groan.)